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All of the first day and second, most of the third I, crippled with cold, froth water and rot hardly kept Japheth in the gray light of this upper world. Once the spirit took him and I, drowsing, barely caught his sash and after many hard minutes wrenched him back, writhing from empty air and noxious sea. To this moment he clings to the deck, dreamed from useful work, swathed in impotence, mourning Bathsheba, Ader, friends of the evening fires at his tent mouth, gone like the lamb, wine and dates. His mother has stopped calling the boy, can scarce keep her foot from his ribs as she sawdusts the decks. Shem, Ham, and the girls have hardened to it, taken destruction into themselves so fully that I caught them laughing, grinding their jaws together against the grit of what falls heaviest, what should stop their mouths. Surely the Lord has saved other souls than these for I can see no good in this seed, so easily destroyed in one part, so deaf to destruction, the other.
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